Mentally Disabled?

So today I found out something that has changed the way I look at my anxiety. Also yes, I am fully aware I am not the only one with
 anxiety disorder, I think my therapist/psychologist's have told me this enough thank you very much. But the thing is, I never saw myself as being "mentally disabled"... I just saw it as an illness I had been born with an illness, it wasn't debilitating, I just had a couple bumps in the system.

But today someone called it a disability, and that of course sent my mind reeling backwards and I had those cold sweats that you get when you figure out something you preferably never wanted to know. Suddenly I realized how debilitating it really was. I would miss school constantly, I couldn't function for an entire month because of a constant panic attack that wouldn't leave me alone. I realized that at one time, I would of rather been dead. It felt like I was dying, over and over, not being able to breath, sweating, throwing up, not being able to eat, not being able to sleep, and the crying. So yes, it is a mental disability, and even though I never wanted to think of it this way, I guess in the long run it needed to be done.


So yes, I'm in a little bit of a depressed mood right now, and I like to write my feelings when I get like this, it helps me. 
Thank you all for reading-
Ego